even with these obstacles

be still my love and do not worry
for you are the only one that holds my heart
you are still the song my heart sings
the melody that makes my soul dance
the rythm that plays over and over again in my head
it is still the longing for you that makes my heart weep
the hope that makes me smile in the morning
you give me a high like a drug in my system
but this high will never wear off
even when you're not here
my love continues to grow with each passing day
you bring joy to my being even when you don't speak
just knowing you are out there loving me
you sustain me, my strength when i'm tired
my prayer answered, my dreams come true
my everything...

even with each busy day, even when its hard to speak to you
even when i don't hear from you, or you don't hear from me
even with the time difference and the scheduling dillema
even with all the obstacles, there is nothing in the world
that would make me stop loving you

new shoes :)

broken phone :(

Hey Baby,

Im so sorry. My phone buttons don't work, i can see you call but i can't pick up. and i can't message you back. I tried texting through YM but im not sure if you got it. I'll update you here.

Today i sorted out a few things.

Ate breakfast
Washed Clothes
Relaxed a bit
Ate Lunch
Hung up the Washing
Did Taekwondo Lesson
Making a slideshow for my mom's birthday

The taekwondo lesson was painful.. medyo nastrain ako.. coz he saw na nakokopya ko ung mga more advanced kicks.. so he made me do some spinning back kicks and high roundhouse kicks.. hes also recommending i do at least 2 hour sessions because he thinks i can perfect it as there were some power to my kicks. hehehe. i really enjoyed it but i am sooo sore baby :(:(

how was your day? i hope you havent been worried bout me too much. i love you baby

just woke up

when i wake up to face this brand new day
it is always your face that i see
after all these months apart
i still look for you next to me
but i put my best face forward
because i know we belong to each other
but i still cant wait to kiss you softly
and watch thise beautiful eyes open
to see the smile that forms across my face
to let you know that you are the best thing
to ever happen to me

Mercer Rugby

still sick :( :( :( ... i look terrible

everything about you

from your head to your toes
there is nothing i do not love
from inside and out
there is nothing i do not want to know about you
i want to share every moment, every thought, every feeling
from the moment i open my eyes
up until when i dream about you
there is nothing that i do that i do not dedicate to you
footsteps, seconds, i count them
as each one brings me closer to you
the stars above console me
we are not so far
we look upon the same sky at night
but yet i can not shake this feeling
i can not help but miss you
sometimes i feel weak
but your love gives me strength
it keeps me going until i see you again
and so here i am
waiting until i see you again,
my love, my only one

everything about you

from your head to your toes
there is nothing i do not love
from inside and out
there is nothing i do not want to know about you
i want to share every moment, every thought, every feeling
from the moment i open my eyes
up until when i dream about you
there is nothing that i do that i do not dedicate to you
footsteps, seconds, i count them
as each one brings me closer to you
the stars above console me
we are not so far
we look upon the same sky at night
but yet i can not shake this feeling
i can not help but miss you
sometimes i feel weak
but your love gives me strength
it keeps me going until i see you again
and so here i am
waiting until i see you again,
my love, my only one

dreams

I used to dream of a smile so beautiful it made my world stop
eyes so lovely i can stare into them for hours

I used to dream of someone i could talk to
someone i would never get tired of listening to

I used to dream of someone that would lift my worries
someone that would lighten even my heaviest burdens

I used to dream of a kiss so passionate that i wouldnt want to stop
a kiss that i would miss every moment after that

I used to dream of someone i could not live without
someone whose presence i miss every second im not with her

I used to dream, but not anymore
because the moment you were mine
all my dreams came true

things im going to buy = ) ralph lauren

crazy about you

thoughts of you run through my mind
mind faltering, cannot function
when every thought i think leads to you
somehow you're in my every action
coz everything i do, i do for you
block out thoughts of ever losing you
coz those thoughts i can not bear
i will hold on and treat you right
coz to do you wrong i cannot dare
how i ever lived without your love
is a question i cannot answer
its like you are the air i breathe
water that nourishes all the flowers
the sun that gives my world life
i cannot fathom another minute without you
that is why my heart belongs to you

you're invited

star gazing

I gaze upon orion's shining lights
specially the bright star on his right
it's your special star
the one i look to at night
for everytime i turn towards that sparkling gem
I think about how special you are to me
although distant it may be
its beauty does not escape me
it fills my heart with pleasure
and reminds me of the times we spent together
I envy orion, the son of poseidon
He could walk on water
For if i posessed this special ability
I would walk the great distance between us
For i miss you so
And my heart forever longs for you

preppy freshness

grandpa cardigan

sometimes

sometimes its hard to breathe knowing your so far away
my house doesnt feel like a home as my home is wherever you are
my hands miss yours, it hasnt been complete since i left
sometimes its hard to speak because all my thoughts are about you
the words dont seem real unless im saying them to you
my love tries to escape to my tongue and sing you praises
sometimes its hard to walk because it doesnt bring me to you
for every step i take towards you makes my heart jump for joy
i wish for a time where i will see you coming towards me with open arms
sometimes its hard to smile when its not directed at you
for you're the one that makes me the happiest
and you're the one that i miss terribly

angels

i dream of angels..
not just one but five
my guardian angel
the one that stays by my side
the one that brings out the best in me
my guiding light
my constant companion
she is so beautiful
then there are the cherubs
four cheeky little ones
they play with each other
laughter fills my dreams
they make me happy just seeing them
i will hold my angels close
and i will thank the Lord
for he has sent me five angels that i truely would adore

missing you

how i wish i spent this day with you
sharing food, stories and laughter
holding hands, touching softly
how i wish i woke up next to you
kiss you lightly to wake you
hold you close, let you know im there
whisper good morning in your ear
tell you how beautiful i thought you were
how i wish we shared lunch together
i would smile cheekily across you
as i get caught staring at you
not being able to help admiring your beauty
how i wish we spent the afternoon lazily
maybe on a picnic, lying down on the grass
imagining clouds into stories
marvelling at how big the sky is
watching it turn black as the sun disappears
then i would marvel at the stars
tell you how i always thought of you everytime i see it
coz no matter how far you were
it comforted me to know we were under the same stars
i would point at the star on the right of orion
i would tell you how it belongs to you
just like my heart..
how i wish i could say this in person
i love you frances eloise
and i will always be yours

varsity prep

its for you

all the hard work that i put in
all the dreams that i dream at night
all the efforts that i make
they are all for you
the thoughts that run through my head
the smile on my face when i get out of bed
all the good emotions that i feel
they're all about you
the last thought before i go to sleep
all the songs i hear on the radio
all the dvds i watch
theyre reminiscent of you
everything i do.. its all for you

things im missing

ive put on my clothes
im ready to go
the only thing missing is a kiss from you
im walking the streets
full of confidence and vigour
but my hands are still longing to be holding yours
i got my blanket over me
head on my pillow
but i still wish i could hold your body against mine
i wake up to slow music
its time to start another day
my eyes search for your beautiful face
for now i'll go wanting
but it won't last much longer
i count the days till i come home
i love you

vest & boots

down by the river

bad days aren't so bad with you

today was not a very good day
but i am still thankful
and i still manage to smile
just because i know that you are mine
i love how you can always lift my spirit
and how you help me be happy every single day
nothing will ever be that bad, now that i have you
my life, my love, my angel
i look forward to the days when i can come home to you
and let you kiss away all my worries
i know with just one touch
i forget everything else
i love you

tired

today im very tired
can barely keep my eyes open
but i just cannot let the day pass
without letting you know i love you
i wish to show how much i care
and tell you all my dreams are about you
there has never been a single girl
who captivates me like you do
my sweet frances
my forever
my angel
you are the only thing i need
it is you that gives me the strength to work harder
the drive to pursue excellence
i do everything for you, for us
although your far away
i hold you close in my heart

a little bit dressy

a summer's day

shall i compare you to a summer's day?
no because i can't compare you to anything
there is nothing that i know that makes me feel the way you do
the way you inspire my every move
the way my thoughts always race back to you
the way your smile warms my heart
your touch breaking down all my barriers
even the feeling of your breath against my skin
i welcome more than the cool breeze in a hot summer night
kisses much sweeter than any summer fruit
memories of you keeps me warm
a summer's day is not necessary
for any day no matter how cold or wet
would be a perfect day as long as you're beside me
i will hold you tight, protecting you from everything
and i will always love you everyday of the year

some photos from work hehehe

letter to my angel

My Forever,

As I write this letter to the girl I think about all day, I can't help but wonder what we'd be doing if we were together. Would she be holding my hand or holding me tight? Maybe we'd just sit and talk about each others day. Doesn't matter what we'd be doing, as long as I'm next to you. Close enough to whisper my undying love for you. Although I cannot be there, I'll try my very best to convey all the positive emotions that you inspire in me.

I wake up every morning, welcoming the sun, i go to sleep at night bidding goodbye to the moon, for every new sun and new moon I see, brings me closer to the day that I see my baby. That day permeates my being, it makes its way into my dreams, the day I get to hold you tight and kiss your soft lovely lips.

In spite of this the truth remains, I miss you. The way you look in the first morning light trickling onto your face that makes me want to kiss you, the way your smile would slowly form when you wake up next to me. The way you'd hold my hand and look at me, I can't help but smile. So on this day, I send my love to you, this letter comes from my heart and I hope it reaches yours, I love you Frances Eloise, the bearer of my soul.

frances' dream

Gavril Floyd
Gavin Fraley
Genica Felice
Gilliane Faye

i would trade

I would trade the stars..
for your eyes sparkle more than anything in the sky
I would trade the moon..
'cause your smile is the only crescent shape i long for
I would trade the sun
as nothing keeps me warmer than your embrace
I would trade a million dollars
'cause you are the only thing i treasure
I would trade food
as nothing nourishes me like the sound of your voice
I would trade water
'cause without you, life has no meaning
I would trade my glasses
nothing is worth seeing if it's not your beautiful face
I would trade clothes
as we would not need them ;)
I would trade everything
just to be with you

you + me (silly thoughts from my tired brain)

you and me belong together
like a key and a lock
we've unlocked each others hearts
i long for you
like a bee to nectar
the result is sweeter than honey
you complete me
like milk to cereal
the day should start with us together
we'll live together
best friends, like bert & ernie
get into crazy adventures
like bonnie & clyde
we maybe different people
but like salt and pepper
we complement each other
that's why i love you

my promise

I will always love you
I know the promise is simple
but its one I know I can keep
sometimes it might be difficult
we may have disagreements
sometimes we will not see eye to eye
but I will always love you
there are times we will be troubled
when the skies pour down the rain
when there is only darkness
I will still be there for you
there may be times we're busy
our lives filled with tasks
there maybe times you feel like
you're running out of time
there is one thing you can rely on
I'll always have time for you
jealousy might come between us
other people trying to tear this down
but you should always remember
you're the only one that holds my heart

when we kiss

my heart beats fast.. calling your name out
i move the hair from your face
a curtain that veils your beauty
a beauty that can never be fully hidden
it radiates, the world sees it
i see it, a sight that stirs my soul
that brings a smile to my face
as i close my eyes i realize how lucky i am
lucky to be in your presence
lucky to be loved by you
i move in closer now..
i smell the scent of your perfume
a sweetness that envelopes my being
my lips touch yours
you've sent my heart into a flutter
like nothing in the world matters
nothing but you and me
i hold you tight
wanting to let you know i belong to you
that i will always be yours
i feel your warmth against my skin
you restore my soul
even now.. your lips linger on mine
i can feel their softness
the words they speak.. without saying a word
that we belong together
i wish that i could kiss you now
as all these words can never really say
that i love you

the luckiest

today i woke up to this song, and thoughts of you filled my head, france i am so lucky to have you and to have known you all my life, i know i have not always done right by you, but you are still here loving me. i want you to know that everyday i wake up feeling lucky because you are mine and i am yours. i wish to love you for all of my days.

Ben Folds - The Luckiest

I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

What if I'd been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong
That I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

her name is france

her name is france
the owner of my heart
i love her every move
from her eyebrow raise
to her dimpled smile
the subtle looks that she gives me
unspoken words that touch my heart
i love the sound of her voice
it speaks straight to my soul
i love the way she holds my hand
the way her lips touch mine
i love the way she fits in my arms
so perfect like she was made to be there
france she is the owner of my mind
every thought is about her
every thing i do i do for her
all my dreams are about france
in my head, our futures intertwined
i dream of us together
living blissfully forever

heaven on earth

As we sit by the waterside.. i watch her smile

She stops time with every move she makes
I pull her closer, put my arms around her
trying to make every moment last
I could feel the chilli air biting at my skin
but it was her warm breath that made my heart stand still
Her eyes so beautiful in the moonlight
rivaled the brightness of all the city lights and the stars
I take in every touch, every sight
She moves her fringe away from her face
Her fingers interlock with mine..
Our lips touch for a tender kiss..
I hold her close in an embrace
at that moment I knew it would be hard to let go
for our lives were intertwined
moments like these replay in my mind
perfect as the day they transpired
how i wish i could relive those times
but i know theres more to come
but now and forever ill cherish every second we've shared
for it is truly heavenly being with the love of your life

road not taken

i often wonder about the road not taken
if i never left philippines
if i grew up there
if i stayed with you
would it have been different
would we have been together
would it be me that you dream about at night
I believe there is a purpose
only God could plan it
but im starting to realise, He seperated us as a gift
He knew we had to take time apart
so we could grow into the people we are
so i could grow into the man you needed
and you could grow to the woman i love
all the years i spent away makes me sure
that my heart will always belong to you
all the paths i have travelled
no matter how hard or how far
i thank the Lord that they have brought me to this moment
where we hold each other in our hearts

the key to my heart

my heart was caged
unwilling to care, unwilling to love
cold and distant, trapped
i found myself closed off from the world
in the darkness, away from the light
but then you came back into my life
your light filled the darkness
your warmth melted my icy heart
the sound of your voice was music to my ears
and i could see gods work in your smile
the way he made you perfect
you held the key to my heart
you are the one who taught it to love again
you are the only one it beats for
my heart is now your servant
my heart is now yours
i will love you forever
for you have shown me a love that i could never before fathom

my confession

my everdearest france.. i regret to say that i have lied and i have cheated

I lied to both of us when I said I did not want to be with you
as there has never been anyone else that could take your place in my heart
I lied when I thought I did not need you
because my life has been empty without you
I lied to myself thinking I could live without you
because you are the air that sustains me, the food for my soul

I cheated myself when i left you
cheated myself out of moments of happiness that i now feel
I cheated myself by depriving myself of your love
as the feeling is beyond compare
I was cheated out of a purposeful life
for now I know you are my reason to live
I cheated myself away from making you smile
as seeing your smile, specially when I am the reason is the greatest reward I could achieve

But as i said, i learn from my mistakes, never again would i lie to myself or cheat myself out of the happiness i feel when im yours and you are mine. This I promise you. Never again will i hide the truth, that YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AND ALWAYS WILL BE THE OWNER OF MY HEART